On July 28 2017, we had a beautiful baby girl .. We named her noor ul ain. Her birth weight was 3.5 kg and she was born on Friday 12.40am. She is my second baby and just 2 years younger than my first girl. Her older sister is 2 years and 5 months .
I have not been posting since I was in my last trimester. The life has become really hard. I was 10 days overdue this time. In such a misery that I don’t even want to recall. Looking after 2 kids is hard. But not difficult than being pregnant and looking after one.
Now things are much settled that I decided to start writing again. Everyday I want to write something but I end up doing something else. Anyway, life is chaotic but beautiful. Both sisters love each other a lot.
While writing here, I feel so bad that I preserved all milestone of my older girl in all my previous posts but missed her’s.
Life with two girls is simply amazing. I’m not a morning person at all. But when they wake up and one came in morning bed and other stomp her feet to come to me. The feelig is out of this world when they both lay with me and give me cuddles and sloppy kisses.
My little girl looks exactly like her sister. And I’m using a lot of zainab’s stuff for noor ul ain. Much more confident mum then before.
I always mention in most of my posts. Time flies. I still remember the day when z was born. Now she is 15 months walking and talking. Getting independent day by day. Doesn’t know that after 6 months her new baby sibling will join too.
Today I had my first scan. And the feelings I had this time is same as I had with Z. It’s so strange of how much love I have in my heart for my second one already. It’s unbelievable. I used to think it must be hard for mums to love all the kids likewise. Now I experienced how true it is that God put so much love in your heart when you become a mum.
With all this love and excitement, I have some concerns as well.
How I am gonna give attention to both??
How they both gonna sleep? (Sharing house with parents. Both kids gonna sleep in one room)
What If my toddler feel jealous or think I am a bad mum?
How much laundry I will be doing?
Will I become a boogie woman? Who stink of dribble and vomits..
How on earth women with kids get time to do all the make up with fake lashes on as well?
Would I be able to sleep?
Am I being overly conscious?
I’m not very good at handling too many things together and I looked after my first one the perfect way. The time she sleeps is the time no body is allowed to make noise. Her nap time and meal times are fixed. She has proper routine. How do second time mums make routine in circumstances like mine. When u have to share room with both of your kids.
I hope my worries will go in few months or these are just my hormones that making me anxious.
Please leave your feedback and let me know if someone is in the same boat.